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I'm having a Terrifyingly Intimate 24 hours, viz:

1. my primary partner started Mrs. Dalloway last night! After almost exactly a year of me emoting! So far he has made a comparison to Miranda of Black Sails so uh, this should be totally fine, for me. I will have a totally supportive and comfortable level of response to whatever he thinks about it, completely chill, I swear.

2. A different partner emailed me, with no subject header or other body text, a single AO3 link. (It's a Captain America fic. Yes, I am reading it.) This was out of the BLUE and very unexpected, characterization wise, and omfg if he gets Into Fandom I am going to LOSE IT in a very particular "oops, didn't think I'd be that flavor of vulnerable to you!" way. The last time we talked about fanfiction I explained some various flavors of dubcon. It went okay. BUT NOW: What if he learns something about me? TRUE horror.